When I look at the knuckle of my left index finger, I am reminded of being 12-years-old and slicing my hand with a fishing knife. Five stitches, and a memory for life.
It is almost 6 p.m. on a Sunday, and I have spent yesterday and today alternating between my kitchen and my living room couch, where I have now completed reading a Michael Crichton novel over these two days. It is with some sadness that I am touring his canon (my third time through) because he died a couple of years ago and there won't be any new ideas or stories from him. I always find something new to think about when I revisit some of these old friends.
So, I have spent the entire weekend doing this, not talking to anyone, not getting out. But it is very peaceful, restful, and thoughtful.
Thanks, Susan, for the post, and for the two books suggested.
I once had a little black bug.
So little I couldn't give him a hug.
At night we'd watch reruns of Oprah.
He made a living from singing opera.
We'd watch movies, eat popcorn somemores.
My little black bug would fall asleep and snore.
On time he jumped off my lap, ran out the door.
I never saw him anymore.
Thanks for the links, mccn - it’s fun to be inspired. It reminds me of another challenge of the artist - the urge to fling oneself in many different, interesting directions. Each area of expertise could take a lifetime to develop, so it’s a good idea to stay focused rather than dabble here and there, unless that’s what a person’s after.
On the other hand, different creative experiences can feed the muse in one’s own area. And if you happen to be Cory Doctorow, you might have the intellect, discipline and stamina to pursue multiple passions with much success.
As for needing an audience, or financial success - these are measures of the capacity of an artist to create things that move others. A song may serve me well in the confines of my music room, but I also want to create songs of meaning and value to others.
Finding that elusive audience then becomes an important component of the art. So I guess what I’m really saying is that when I fail at sales (drawing listeners to my songs) I also fail at creating the essential feedback that fuels the art. Marketing, an art form in itself, swallows huge chunks of time, especially now, with endless social networking sites out there.
I’ve reserved ‘Just a Geek’ and look forward to reading. Gotta love Ensign Crusher!
I know that your post is differently focused, but it reminded me a little bit about a lot of the concern with success and solvency that's been going around regarding the "decline" of print journalism and media, and the availability of free content. The theory is out there that we will lose out on quality because of the way content is developing.
I often am moved to respond (as I have previously on the internets) that it is my understanding that most creators of content create because they are moved to do so. The analysis here is produced in the spare time of the writers because they care and are interested. The same is true of the artwork here and the literature here and works of all types in many other places.
Wil Wheaton, in his excellent book, Just A Geek (which I highly encourage you all to run out and purchase immediately. What are you waiting for?), examines multiple times advice given (by Patrick Stewart) about acting, which is essentially that you shouldn't pursue it seriously unless you love it enough to make the downsides worthwhile - the continual rejection, the uncertainty of income, the struggling and starving with no guarantees. Essentially, Patrick says, you should do it only if you can't not do it. I've heard the same about writing, and many other forms of art. People who create, for the most part, seem to do so because they are compelled to. And I think that this will be true for many regardless of their success. Because, I think for many creators, success - financial or otherwise - really just isn't that important. (Another great example is the author Alfred Wight, better known as James Herriot - in a biography written by his son, it's clear that hopes for success had little to do with the creation of the James Herriot books).
I do wish that more success were available for the many brilliant and dedicated creators who are out there. But I cannot believe that we will have access to less amazing art, music, and all kinds of things, because success and recognition are hard to come by. I believe that as humanity goes along, we are getting even more creativity and wonderment, because creation is ineffable, and not compelled by success.
I hope that you can take courage and hope from that idea, too!
It is true that most musicians will never make it in the profession of music because they don't go all the way to do what is necessary to make it. And some who do go all the way don't make it either.
I think it is a myth that today's technology can make stars of the humble stay-at-homes who toil in their basement studios. I haven't seen it happen yet, except very occasionally -- just like in the old model.
This sounds pessimistic, perhaps, but as you point out, Susan, it has little to do with music. Music is in the musician's blood. Like all art, it's a compulsive thing. It hurts if it doesn't come out.
Maybe that's why open stages are popular now that regular musician jobs have dried up. In the old days, musicians could work for money because many jobs were available. Now many have to play free or almost free if they want to get up on a stage. It's not nice, and it's not pretty. It's definitely not good for self-esteem. But it's the way it is.
Some of us choose to drop out of public music, rather than endure the pain of the return to amateurism. It hurts, though, to drop out.
I love painting, and I love making music. None of that will ever change.
While looking up Oliver Sacks' book, Musicophilia: Tales of Music and the Brain, which I highly recommend, I found The Library of Congress: Music and the Brain, a podcast series on the subject. I'm into 'podcast-while-walking' so the bounties of nature and I will have to check out episodes like 'Why Do Listeners Enjoy Music that Makes Them Weep?,''Your Brain on Jazz,' 'Dangerous Music,' 'The Mind of the Artist,' to name a few.
Interesting stuff for sure. I have to smile when you say 'didn't we already know this?' Music-while-walking might be just as enlightening.
Hi Susan,
I love this post! Thanks for the link to '2 Men and a Campfire'. I'm listening to it as I write this. There was an article in a newspaper about how science has proven that the human animal is hard wired for music. They have decided that the vein goes back to early humans when they first started using sounds to communicate. Other critters do that, of course, but we do it better. So, there you have it. We can't help it, we're hooked on music.
I remember one of my college English professors saying that the poet Wystan Hugh Auden once remarked that when he wrote critical essays for literary journals, or delivered lectures before highminded audiences, he did it for the money. But he said that every line of poetry he ever wrote was done out of love, because he never made any real money from it.
When I am expecting guests, I usually spend the final hour and a half before their arrival scurrying around, cleaning the bathroom and the kitchen, straightening up the living room and dining room, closing the door to my bedroom. I promise myself I will do this the day before, but it usually ends up being a last minute madness. Invariably, in fact.
I'd love to know what your "flimsy excuse" was for "darting for the door, sons in tow."
Hey, what's that strange stuff in the tupperware in the rear of my refrigerator? Oh, cucumber salad -- it's been lurking there since Christmas, creating its own penicillin. Don't open it!!!
Interesting thoughts. My immigrant roots are two generations past, but I think of myself in the company of Irish and American poets and artists, an "outside cousin" of those addressed by William Yeats in "Under Ben Bulben":
Irish poets learn your trade,
Sing whatever is well made,
Scorn the sort now growing up
All of out shape from toe to top,
Their unremembering hearts and heads
Base-born products of base beds.
Sing the peasantry, and then
Hard-riding country gentlemen,
The holiness of monks, and after
Porter-drinkers randy laughter;
Sing the lords and ladies gay
That were beaten into the clay
Through seven heroic centuries;
Cast your mind on other days
That we in coming days may be
Still the indomitable Irishry.
Yeats.
His poems are like prayers to me, as I take pen or brush in this digital age -- but I also feel the breath and spirit of even more distant American cousins -- Black Elk, Langston Hughes, Mark Twain, Emily Dickenson, Nathaniel Hawthorne, Herman Melville, and Bob Dylan; and among the painters, Childe Hassam, Jackson Pollock, and Andy Warhol. As different as their work might be from mine, I feel a kinship with them, as I am their cousin of the brush and pen.
Call me Ishmael...
Thanks for the post, Susan. It makes us think about our art in a continuum.
A perfect day for me is to paint something and be satisfied with the end result. To not work it to its death, but to recognize when it is finished.
A perfect day is to sit at a picnic table under a tree near the water while eating a hot dog (not allowed anymore) or a hot fudge sundae. And all the while conversing with a friend, sharing that moment with a significant other.
A perfect day is to see the sun rise, cross the sky, and set, knowing that it is not the sun moving, but the earth, and it has done this for billions of years. It is very dependable, the perfect day.
Good luck to the brothers with their Ipad App. I think they should take you out to dinner (in Italy or Greece) with their first big check.
I also enjoyed the Verb Ballet... and I totally can imagine you as a dancer. However, I would be nervous watching you standing on the shoulders of the other dancers. I held my applause at the ballet until they had all disembarked and were standing on solid ground. I guess I should have more faith and trust in their dance expertise.
And on a final note, it sounds like some indie musicians still have a lot to learn.
I believe that there are people who will say whatever the public wants to hear. Rhetoric, yes! Do they care morally? No! Does the public as a whole investigate to get the truth? No!
By riling up the public, these so called future leaders can then offer security, which will equal votes. Words, metaphors are powerful indeed. This is leadership? Absolutly not! There are to many people in leadership positions or are striving for a leadership position that care not what they say nor what they do in order to achieve their goals.
I’ve brought this question here because it has to do with words. By the time a politician rises to prominence, I assume her/his word choice is intentional, strategic even, and your explanation for the motivation makes sense.
What confounds me is how they square their vocabulary with their morality. They claim to offer security while riling up the masses. Words, metaphors, are powerful. This is leadership?
Why do the Republicans constantly refer to violence in their speeches? It's the scare tatic. When people are threatened then they start looking for security.
In "The Technological Society" by Jacques Ellul, Ellul said"That in a Technological Society, people will take security and order over justice."
By referring to violence, people will become afraide and seek security. If the Republicans can represent themselves as givers to that security, then they also will get the votes.
I read this article as well, and appreciated (from my liberal, feminist viewpoint) Gopnik's pointing out that people who produce works society values are often exempt from the standards that I believe we should demand of all (although I may not agree with the standards in this case - the requirement that people marry, be monogamous, and raise children, for example).
Your commentary is thought-provoking; I had always defined an artist, internally, as someone who felt an undeniable compulsion to say something, in a particular way - the question of audience didn't enter into my definition. But as I review the artists that have been most meaningful in my life, many of them are authors, who are writing with a purpose and an intent to challenge the minds of their readers. Certainly, there are no guarantees - the artist creates her audience just as an audience member may create his artist, and in each case, the imaginative creation may have little to do with reality. But I appreciate this reminder that art is not just one-sided, that it often is also a conversation and an interaction.
I'll tell you a story a real true life story
A tale of the Western frontier.
The West, it was lawless,
but one man was flawless
and his is the story you'll hear.
Wyatt Earp, Wyatt Earp,
Brave courageous and bold.
Long live his fame and long live his glory
and long may his story be told.
Well he cleaned up the country
The old wild west country
He made law and order prevail.
And none can deny it
The legend of Wyatt
Forever will live on the trail.
Wyatt Earp, Wyatt Earp,
Brave courageous and bold.
Long live his fame and long live his glory
and long may his story be told
-- The Life and Times of Wyatt Earp, Lyrics by Harold Adamson, Music by Harry Warren. Performed by the Ken Darby Singers and Johnny Western.
I know a few of those who are companions of your artist life, your work and music. Your album, Monet's Orbit, is full of amazing poetry and sublime music, and I consider myself honored to have been a companion in that masterpiece.
Re: Salinger, I just read that the Morgan Library in New York City has eleven letters he wrote to one of his closest literary friends, and they will be put on exhibit there very soon.
I'm so glad Vincent (as he's referred to always in The Yellow House) was a prolific writer of letters, just for the small insight into his mind. But, as you say, it is the pictures that speak for him.
Your stun gun metaphor reminds me of how Alec Baldwin talks about his first exposure to classical music (in a video here).
I was stationed in W. Germany '72-'75 while serving in the U.S.A.F. I visited the Van Gogh Museum in Amsterdam, http://www.vangoghmuseum.nl/vgm/index.jsp. I didn't know anything about art then and this was as good a place as any to start learning. Stun guns had not been invented yet but I sort of felt like I had been hit by one. No matter how high the print quality of Van Gogh books, calendars, posters, etc., it is impossible to effectively reproduce the broad and thick brush strokes. The other thing that struck me was that the paint looks like it is still wet. He was a true genius.
I for one would sorely miss his work, especially after 'spending quality time' (a quite mad quality, at times) with him and Gauguin in the above mentioned pages over the past weeks. I don't doubt there is art produced through balance. But I often wonder how much richer and more imaginative creations might emerge with the focus, intensity and freedom of the wild spirits.
Vincent knew he had to calm his mental anguish enough to function. What strikes me is how much those of us drenched in real world responsibility calm so much mental anguish out of ourselves, that we hunger for inspiration. Vincent didn't often lack for inspiration, or so it seems.
When I look at the knuckle of my left index finger, I am reminded of being 12-years-old and slicing my hand with a fishing knife. Five stitches, and a memory for life.
It is almost 6 p.m. on a Sunday, and I have spent yesterday and today alternating between my kitchen and my living room couch, where I have now completed reading a Michael Crichton novel over these two days. It is with some sadness that I am touring his canon (my third time through) because he died a couple of years ago and there won't be any new ideas or stories from him. I always find something new to think about when I revisit some of these old friends.
So, I have spent the entire weekend doing this, not talking to anyone, not getting out. But it is very peaceful, restful, and thoughtful.
Thanks, Susan, for the post, and for the two books suggested.
What a sensuous relationship you describe-- bar none. I like this track you're on. You, Susan, are a steely-eyed fiction mave.
Susan,
Your words are so poetic and create fine, beautiful, Imagery
I once had a little black bug.
So little I couldn't give him a hug.
At night we'd watch reruns of Oprah.
He made a living from singing opera.
We'd watch movies, eat popcorn somemores.
My little black bug would fall asleep and snore.
On time he jumped off my lap, ran out the door.
I never saw him anymore.
Susan, this is beautiful. It's poetry. What a vision captured.
Thanks for the links, mccn - it’s fun to be inspired. It reminds me of another challenge of the artist - the urge to fling oneself in many different, interesting directions. Each area of expertise could take a lifetime to develop, so it’s a good idea to stay focused rather than dabble here and there, unless that’s what a person’s after.
On the other hand, different creative experiences can feed the muse in one’s own area. And if you happen to be Cory Doctorow, you might have the intellect, discipline and stamina to pursue multiple passions with much success.
As for needing an audience, or financial success - these are measures of the capacity of an artist to create things that move others. A song may serve me well in the confines of my music room, but I also want to create songs of meaning and value to others.
Finding that elusive audience then becomes an important component of the art. So I guess what I’m really saying is that when I fail at sales (drawing listeners to my songs) I also fail at creating the essential feedback that fuels the art. Marketing, an art form in itself, swallows huge chunks of time, especially now, with endless social networking sites out there.
I’ve reserved ‘Just a Geek’ and look forward to reading. Gotta love Ensign Crusher!
I know that your post is differently focused, but it reminded me a little bit about a lot of the concern with success and solvency that's been going around regarding the "decline" of print journalism and media, and the availability of free content. The theory is out there that we will lose out on quality because of the way content is developing.
I often am moved to respond (as I have previously on the internets) that it is my understanding that most creators of content create because they are moved to do so. The analysis here is produced in the spare time of the writers because they care and are interested. The same is true of the artwork here and the literature here and works of all types in many other places.
Wil Wheaton, in his excellent book, Just A Geek (which I highly encourage you all to run out and purchase immediately. What are you waiting for?), examines multiple times advice given (by Patrick Stewart) about acting, which is essentially that you shouldn't pursue it seriously unless you love it enough to make the downsides worthwhile - the continual rejection, the uncertainty of income, the struggling and starving with no guarantees. Essentially, Patrick says, you should do it only if you can't not do it. I've heard the same about writing, and many other forms of art. People who create, for the most part, seem to do so because they are compelled to. And I think that this will be true for many regardless of their success. Because, I think for many creators, success - financial or otherwise - really just isn't that important. (Another great example is the author Alfred Wight, better known as James Herriot - in a biography written by his son, it's clear that hopes for success had little to do with the creation of the James Herriot books).
I do wish that more success were available for the many brilliant and dedicated creators who are out there. But I cannot believe that we will have access to less amazing art, music, and all kinds of things, because success and recognition are hard to come by. I believe that as humanity goes along, we are getting even more creativity and wonderment, because creation is ineffable, and not compelled by success.
I hope that you can take courage and hope from that idea, too!
In his recent post, Derik Sivers, offers tips on the dos and don'ts of music success.
You can love and love and love. You have to work and work and work. No guarantees whatsoever.
It is true that most musicians will never make it in the profession of music because they don't go all the way to do what is necessary to make it. And some who do go all the way don't make it either.
I think it is a myth that today's technology can make stars of the humble stay-at-homes who toil in their basement studios. I haven't seen it happen yet, except very occasionally -- just like in the old model.
This sounds pessimistic, perhaps, but as you point out, Susan, it has little to do with music. Music is in the musician's blood. Like all art, it's a compulsive thing. It hurts if it doesn't come out.
Maybe that's why open stages are popular now that regular musician jobs have dried up. In the old days, musicians could work for money because many jobs were available. Now many have to play free or almost free if they want to get up on a stage. It's not nice, and it's not pretty. It's definitely not good for self-esteem. But it's the way it is.
Some of us choose to drop out of public music, rather than endure the pain of the return to amateurism. It hurts, though, to drop out.
I love painting, and I love making music. None of that will ever change.
While looking up Oliver Sacks' book, Musicophilia: Tales of Music and the Brain, which I highly recommend, I found The Library of Congress: Music and the Brain, a podcast series on the subject. I'm into 'podcast-while-walking' so the bounties of nature and I will have to check out episodes like 'Why Do Listeners Enjoy Music that Makes Them Weep?,''Your Brain on Jazz,' 'Dangerous Music,' 'The Mind of the Artist,' to name a few.
Interesting stuff for sure. I have to smile when you say 'didn't we already know this?' Music-while-walking might be just as enlightening.
Hi Susan,
I love this post! Thanks for the link to '2 Men and a Campfire'. I'm listening to it as I write this. There was an article in a newspaper about how science has proven that the human animal is hard wired for music. They have decided that the vein goes back to early humans when they first started using sounds to communicate. Other critters do that, of course, but we do it better. So, there you have it. We can't help it, we're hooked on music.
Wait, wait, didn't we already know this?
Dill bread makes great toast.
I remember one of my college English professors saying that the poet Wystan Hugh Auden once remarked that when he wrote critical essays for literary journals, or delivered lectures before highminded audiences, he did it for the money. But he said that every line of poetry he ever wrote was done out of love, because he never made any real money from it.
When I am expecting guests, I usually spend the final hour and a half before their arrival scurrying around, cleaning the bathroom and the kitchen, straightening up the living room and dining room, closing the door to my bedroom. I promise myself I will do this the day before, but it usually ends up being a last minute madness. Invariably, in fact.
I'd love to know what your "flimsy excuse" was for "darting for the door, sons in tow."
Hey, what's that strange stuff in the tupperware in the rear of my refrigerator? Oh, cucumber salad -- it's been lurking there since Christmas, creating its own penicillin. Don't open it!!!
Interesting thoughts. My immigrant roots are two generations past, but I think of myself in the company of Irish and American poets and artists, an "outside cousin" of those addressed by William Yeats in "Under Ben Bulben":
Irish poets learn your trade,
Sing whatever is well made,
Scorn the sort now growing up
All of out shape from toe to top,
Their unremembering hearts and heads
Base-born products of base beds.
Sing the peasantry, and then
Hard-riding country gentlemen,
The holiness of monks, and after
Porter-drinkers randy laughter;
Sing the lords and ladies gay
That were beaten into the clay
Through seven heroic centuries;
Cast your mind on other days
That we in coming days may be
Still the indomitable Irishry.
Yeats.
His poems are like prayers to me, as I take pen or brush in this digital age -- but I also feel the breath and spirit of even more distant American cousins -- Black Elk, Langston Hughes, Mark Twain, Emily Dickenson, Nathaniel Hawthorne, Herman Melville, and Bob Dylan; and among the painters, Childe Hassam, Jackson Pollock, and Andy Warhol. As different as their work might be from mine, I feel a kinship with them, as I am their cousin of the brush and pen.
Call me Ishmael...
Thanks for the post, Susan. It makes us think about our art in a continuum.
How quaint, yet how true.
A perfect day for me is to paint something and be satisfied with the end result. To not work it to its death, but to recognize when it is finished.
A perfect day is to sit at a picnic table under a tree near the water while eating a hot dog (not allowed anymore) or a hot fudge sundae. And all the while conversing with a friend, sharing that moment with a significant other.
A perfect day is to see the sun rise, cross the sky, and set, knowing that it is not the sun moving, but the earth, and it has done this for billions of years. It is very dependable, the perfect day.
Good luck to the brothers with their Ipad App. I think they should take you out to dinner (in Italy or Greece) with their first big check.
I also enjoyed the Verb Ballet... and I totally can imagine you as a dancer. However, I would be nervous watching you standing on the shoulders of the other dancers. I held my applause at the ballet until they had all disembarked and were standing on solid ground. I guess I should have more faith and trust in their dance expertise.
And on a final note, it sounds like some indie musicians still have a lot to learn.
I believe that there are people who will say whatever the public wants to hear. Rhetoric, yes! Do they care morally? No! Does the public as a whole investigate to get the truth? No!
By riling up the public, these so called future leaders can then offer security, which will equal votes. Words, metaphors are powerful indeed. This is leadership? Absolutly not! There are to many people in leadership positions or are striving for a leadership position that care not what they say nor what they do in order to achieve their goals.
I’ve brought this question here because it has to do with words. By the time a politician rises to prominence, I assume her/his word choice is intentional, strategic even, and your explanation for the motivation makes sense.
What confounds me is how they square their vocabulary with their morality. They claim to offer security while riling up the masses. Words, metaphors, are powerful. This is leadership?
Why do the Republicans constantly refer to violence in their speeches? It's the scare tatic. When people are threatened then they start looking for security.
In "The Technological Society" by Jacques Ellul, Ellul said"That in a Technological Society, people will take security and order over justice."
By referring to violence, people will become afraide and seek security. If the Republicans can represent themselves as givers to that security, then they also will get the votes.
I read this article as well, and appreciated (from my liberal, feminist viewpoint) Gopnik's pointing out that people who produce works society values are often exempt from the standards that I believe we should demand of all (although I may not agree with the standards in this case - the requirement that people marry, be monogamous, and raise children, for example).
Your commentary is thought-provoking; I had always defined an artist, internally, as someone who felt an undeniable compulsion to say something, in a particular way - the question of audience didn't enter into my definition. But as I review the artists that have been most meaningful in my life, many of them are authors, who are writing with a purpose and an intent to challenge the minds of their readers. Certainly, there are no guarantees - the artist creates her audience just as an audience member may create his artist, and in each case, the imaginative creation may have little to do with reality. But I appreciate this reminder that art is not just one-sided, that it often is also a conversation and an interaction.
The Life and Times of Wyatt Earp
I'll tell you a story a real true life story
A tale of the Western frontier.
The West, it was lawless,
but one man was flawless
and his is the story you'll hear.
Wyatt Earp, Wyatt Earp,
Brave courageous and bold.
Long live his fame and long live his glory
and long may his story be told.
Well he cleaned up the country
The old wild west country
He made law and order prevail.
And none can deny it
The legend of Wyatt
Forever will live on the trail.
Wyatt Earp, Wyatt Earp,
Brave courageous and bold.
Long live his fame and long live his glory
and long may his story be told
-- The Life and Times of Wyatt Earp, Lyrics by Harold Adamson, Music by Harry Warren. Performed by the Ken Darby Singers and Johnny Western.
I know a few of those who are companions of your artist life, your work and music. Your album, Monet's Orbit, is full of amazing poetry and sublime music, and I consider myself honored to have been a companion in that masterpiece.
Re: Salinger, I just read that the Morgan Library in New York City has eleven letters he wrote to one of his closest literary friends, and they will be put on exhibit there very soon.
I'm so glad Vincent (as he's referred to always in The Yellow House) was a prolific writer of letters, just for the small insight into his mind. But, as you say, it is the pictures that speak for him.
Your stun gun metaphor reminds me of how Alec Baldwin talks about his first exposure to classical music (in a video here).
Thanks for joining the conversation, Mark.
I was stationed in W. Germany '72-'75 while serving in the U.S.A.F. I visited the Van Gogh Museum in Amsterdam, http://www.vangoghmuseum.nl/vgm/index.jsp. I didn't know anything about art then and this was as good a place as any to start learning. Stun guns had not been invented yet but I sort of felt like I had been hit by one. No matter how high the print quality of Van Gogh books, calendars, posters, etc., it is impossible to effectively reproduce the broad and thick brush strokes. The other thing that struck me was that the paint looks like it is still wet. He was a true genius.
I for one would sorely miss his work, especially after 'spending quality time' (a quite mad quality, at times) with him and Gauguin in the above mentioned pages over the past weeks. I don't doubt there is art produced through balance. But I often wonder how much richer and more imaginative creations might emerge with the focus, intensity and freedom of the wild spirits.
Vincent knew he had to calm his mental anguish enough to function. What strikes me is how much those of us drenched in real world responsibility calm so much mental anguish out of ourselves, that we hunger for inspiration. Vincent didn't often lack for inspiration, or so it seems.