February 2009

Stream of consciousn... yess!

I'd been muse-less lo those many months once I closed up the rock shop, tore down the shingles and sent the bloodhounds packing.  Madame Muse made herself scarcer than a repentant banker.  I'd been calling her Ms. Muse, as in mademoiselle, which seems to have been the problem.

Fronting a rock band was loads of fun, and work, which made the fun more lavish, I suppose.  But the bleak future I painstakingly ignored caught up with and shut down my subconscious, with the resident muse handcuffed to the light fixtures.  That's my theory, anyway.  Am I getting too flowery here?  Walter will tell me.

Impressions

We stand, two women
in the locker room
after a swim.

Flo tells me
her mother died.
'There's been so much,
planning,
and sorting of things.
I haven't had time to mourn.'

I listen.
Flo speaks.
'I say Kaddish at the temple.
That's my time.'

We compare traditions,
Jewish and Christian.
One of each,
a motherless Christian,
a motherless Jew.
Wisps of grace
spun across the blue tiled floor.

The convoluted brain map

It always makes him sullen and resentful when he doesn't have anything to be sullen and resentful about.
Jerry Scott and Jim Borgman, Zits

When art, science and philanthropy merge, I tend toward joyous-and-thankful, but not this time.  The Cleveland Clinic to manage Lou Ruvo brain center in Vegas headline shot my sullen-and-resentful-meter sky high.  It isn't architect Frank Gehry's 'rippling grid of stainless steel' or the 'way north of $120 million' price tag that confound me.  It's this:

'I'm going to have the best doctors in the world here,' Ruvo said he told Gehry.

The good German

When I was a fresh faced undergrad at Die Universität Bonn, a German student asked me how Americans could live with the blot of slavery in our past.  I asked her, "How can Germans live with the Holocaust?"  I'm not remotely proud of that rejoinder. Our mutual mud drubbing accomplished nothing.

This film, The Reader, invokes a far more meaningful discourse. So, when a fellow movie goer recently explained Hanna Schmitz's choices with, 'She was just being a Good German,' I flinched.  Isn't our willingness to paint a person or a culture with broad strokes, after all, called into question by the entire film?

Focus | powered by chocolate

Who am I to disregard today's chocolate-with-impunity Valentine soirée?

So it is, with cocoa butter coursing my veins, I tweak a Feedblitz email (to send you, whenever I publish here), picks and previews purring along when, suddenly, like a vision, a mysterious menu glides down from the browser toolbar.  It contains one word, 'focus,' and the OK button.  Hmm.  Focus.  I've been focusing - or is the muse of confection warning of false highs?

Amy Tan | particles of truth

I promise to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth - so help me God.  Hand on the bible, oath of honesty in a court of law.

But in Amy Tan's cosmology, as she creates something from nothing in her novels and in her life, she rejects absolutes.  Here are quotes from her TED Talk, which I highly recommend watching if you spend time with the muse:

"How do I create?  By questioning and saying to myself there are no absolute truths.  I believe in specifics - the specifics of story - and the past and what is happening in the story at that point. 

By thinking about luck and fate, coincidences and accidents, God's will, the synchronicity of mysterious forces, I will come to some notion of how it is we create.

There is uncertainty in everything that is, and that is good.  For then I can discover something new.

Monsieur, ou est la bague en or?

Ever eat a pomegranate?  It tastes delicious, right?  Until you neigh choke on the bulbous seed of each red ruby.  A pomegranate is like the suave gentleman who never quite proposes to the lady because of his plethora of wife, children, parents, mother-in-law, mortgage, job, church... inner conflicts of interest.

There's a reason I bring up the Jane Austin of all fruits, besides wanting to feast your eyes with this alluring photo.  The necessary work of art can be daunting, too, if you fall in love with a creative idea before you understand the swallowing hazards involved.  I love to perform music.  I've worked hard to be good at it.  But venues tend to hire bands to get people onto bar stools and keep them there to drink, and drink... and drink.  Or they invite musicians into their cacophonous bookstores and cafés to play for tips, exposure and CD hawking.  These hard kernels have nothing to do with my love of performing and everything to do with saying, 'no.'

Revolutionary road

Suburbia is the fat cat hummer squashing the living daylight out of its gifted and talented roadkill.  Splatch!  There goes another would be creative, extinguished by marriage, babies and the two car garage.  In the film, talking, dreaming, screaming, sobbing, fornication - nothing re-inflates the squashed casualties of a cloying culture.

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